frustrations out!

hi! good morning assalamualaikum
ooopppsss.... i just copied my cousin tagline. maybe its because i think its a nice tagline to start with?

well, i am writing to tell you all my frustrations....
yesterday and Friday i went out with my grandmother and my auntie... we went to Jurong Point. most of the trips that i have been too this was my one and only trip to actually have fun. unluckily me they keep on talking about my cousin non stop... that my cousin this larh like that LARH... then i am like so pissed off. i feel like telling them hey can you guys stop talking about her? i am here and that i am not her. i was so frustrated that i feel like running away and ask them to go away. i feel that they are being biased here, and then i am what? their handbag. also, when my auntie, says that i am not her daughter and that i am just her niece it broke my heart lots and lots of time. i feel that it was kind of useless for me. 

well, i understand that i am just an outsider and that i am also the black sheep grand  daugther in the family.
everything also her, her and her and her. what did she do that made you guys proud of her huh? what she accompanied you guys to the market? she spends time talking to u guys at home? she was there when u got hurt and accompanied you to the clinic? she was there when you guys need her? well, most of the time i was there. so what if parents approved of your marriage? well, guess what they want? they want to just sell you off to them so that she need not worry anything about you and don't ask money from them. so that they can be at ease. you treat his house like your own house then grandmother house like what? hotel? come and go as you please? OK i admit that you have change for the better but then what? they actually want to marry you off soon  ASAP even before you can continue your studies

your family has been looking for me when they need help because i am closest to you. you keep on forgetting that you were so suppose to take care of me.. i do not know if it was true or false. but i believed you. like i said no matter what u are still my cousin... but however you are drifting apart from me like old times... and it was the same like when i was young... u used me again and again.. but its okay... i do not mind...

for your information
grandmother has been speaking about you almost every time and auntie too... cause they love you this much. but you showed nothing to show them that they love u back. they also want to hangout with you.. but they only want you and you only please... if after u married and they want to go out with u and your husband you can larh. but please for now just spend 1 to one quality time with them....

with love
sharifah <3